isnt this exactly where you like me.
praying for love.
i swear i never watched you sleeping.
i guess it always gets me drinking.
she makes me sad.
listening to the sounds of an unprotected heart.
cleaning up the mess and sleeping the day away.
i watch.
i look.
i see the empty changes that are taking place.
and ive never seen this look so good.
horizontal promises.
that take and break my skin away.
its creating the cold that runs up my spine.
i. am. not. fine.
i am full to the brim with loves of a different kind.
i am not fine.
but i am getting there with seconds to pass the time.
dressed up for the social scene of the night.
come with me and ill show you whats left of me.
my eyes are averted.
caught up with anything that gets in my field of vision.
living by the soles of my shoes.
they are running ragged.
and i am raging to go in the same direction.
but.
i.
am.
pulling.
away.
to trace a different path.



i am trying beautiful girl.